Esprit de l'escalier

Yes, that’s right…I’ve come to another conclusion. I’m fickle. Honest, I think I’m fickle. And it bugs me. Today was kinda weird. I woke up late and I was super bummed about that because my brother left me and went to my grandma’s without me. *grrrr* He’s such a PUNK!!!! I’m still mad about it. Anyhow, I dragged myself downstairs and sat in the living room in my pjs with my kitties and had cake for breakfast. It made me feel a little bit better. Then I got ready and drove all the way to my grandma’s house to find out that they were’nt there. I called and he wasn’t picking up his phone….blah blah blah. I was getting pretty angry by this point. So I decided I needed to sit and chill. I sat on a little bench in my grandma’s front yard and enjoyed the scenery of the sunshine and the birds. My grandma lives in a really really really super nice retirment place called Rosmoore. It’s gorgious. I would describe it but that would just turn this into another long entry that nobody would want to read simply because it was long. After a while I finally got a hold of my brother and they were just leaving church and we decided to meet up at In N Out. We had lunch there (adding to the wonderful diet I started the morning off with). From there, my brother and Heather suddenly had ‘arens’ to run and they ditched out on us even though we were supposed to go and see my aunt and uncles new house that they are building. I didn’t want to skip out on my grandma so I volunteered to take her over there. It was fun to see my aunt Lisa again. Everybody at church calls me Lisa because I look just like she did when she was my age. We always have fun together. She showed me around the place. Their plot of land is 1900 acres. It’s huge and the plans they have for it are amazing. They’re building this huge house with a sport court, pool, guest house, paintball range with bunkers and the works! It’s going to be gorgious. That’ll have to be a whole other entry as well. So today was fun and my mood changed as soon as my brother was out of the picture. Then I got home after dropping my grandma off and I am not really feeling in the mood to talk to him. He knows I’m mad at him and he acts like nothing is wrong. He’s been pulling antics like this all week and I just take it. Why do I take it? I’m such a doormat! I just let people walk all over me. Is that wrong? Aren’t I supposed to be passive and forgiving? I dunno. In a lot of ways I think it might be a good thing. I mean, I’m still friends with all the guys I’ve dated and we even still hang out on occasion. I suppose it’s better than being bitter for the rest of my life. Whatever, I’m not going to fester inside about it. I’m tired, it’s been a long day. I think I’m going to finish this up later…hmmm nap time.

Honestly, I am blessed up the whazoo. I have awesome friends, a family that I still love even when I feel like hurting them sometimes and I honestly don’t feel like I deserve a speck of it. It’s hard not to feel guilty. But anyhow, I’ve had a great week. My parents have been gone since last Sunday and I just picked them up from the airport today. It’s good to have them back.
Work has been easy this last week. I’ve been filing and scrapbooking pictures from company events for my mom in an attempt to feel like I’m being constructive enough to justify getting paid for my time. It’s kind of fun scrapbooking somebody else’s photos. I mean, you have to put commentary or something. I wasn’t present when the photos were taken and I only know like a handful of the people in the pictures so what I did for commentary was make up stories for each series of pictures. It was rather fun. I’ll have to see if I can scan any of the pages to post them or something.
It’s been kind of weird this past week not having my best friend around. But hooray! She’ll be home soon! I’m counting down the days. Thankfully I have been keeping myself busy in the evenings when I would usually bug her to hang out.
Well, let me see….Tuesday I hung out with Mac Man and it was fun to just sit and catch up. He’d been gone for a while working at a camp in Massachusetts (I think). Anyway, I had missed him quite a bit. It was exciting to hear how God had been working through his experiences while he was there. And it was nice to hear about his plans for the future and his ambitions and dreams. I always enjoy listening to people describe their dreams. It’s different than having someone describe just any old thing, there is something about dreams. When someone opens up like that it’s almost like your one the ride with them going through the ups and downs, the twists and turns. People generally put more heart and energy into talking about something that they’re passionate or excited about. I love bringing that out in people that I talk to, even if I’m just getting to know them. It’s hard to describe the conversations I have with him…they are very different than any type of conversations I have with other guys. I wish I could find the words to describe it…it’s like trying to describe the flavor of bottled water and how it differs from tap water. One is just as refreshing as the other on a hot summer day, but somehow it leaves a different taste in your mouth. I have very intellectual conversations with Juan too, but those conversations leave me with a different flavor after thought than Mac Man’s.
Anyhow, I always learn something new when I talk to MM and its always fun. I can only hope that he enjoys them just as much as I do.
Another person I got to hang out with a lot that I have missed tremendously is Juan. Now there is a glass of refreshing water that everyone should get a taste of! I had gotten to hang out with him briefly a few nights and finally I was able to take a day off of work on Thursday and we had the whole day to ourselves! Now, I’m not sure how he does it, but Juan is one of those people (like Loreanne) who somehow have the ability to read my mind. He put together this whole day and I had such a great time that there were moments that almost brought tears to my eyes (and for those of you that know me pretty well, you know that’s very hard to do). We went to the city and went through the metereon and that was fun, especially when he showed me the upper level that is constructed to illustrate the entire book “Where the Wild Things Are”. I love that book! It’s right up there with “If You Give A Mouse a Cookie”. Those books really strike a cord with me. Plus, they were playing all my favorite songs when we were walking through there, it was really trippy. They played Enya on the lower level and then they were playing Louis Armstrong upstairs! When we walked outside, the sun was shining, people were smiling and the jazz band was playing. It was like a scene straight out of a Norman Rockwell painting. Next we went to the art museum, talk about hitting all my weaknesses! I love art museums. (I’m such a nerd!) We spent a good couple hours walking through the upper levels of the museum and discussing ‘art stuff’. Juan is an artist too, which is one of the many levels that we connect on. But did he stop there? Of course not! After the museum we went to Bodin’s Sourdough Cafe, a cute little cafe that has really yummy breadbowls and hot chocolate. We sat in there and talked. Juan is a great person to talk with. You start talking with him like you would with anyone else, but before you know it, the next time you look at a clock you realize you’ve been talking for a good three hours or so and you stop to think about what you were talking about to realize that your initial ‘small talk’ turned into ‘big, deep, intellectual talk’. Not to mention that you always walk away from the conversation with 20 gazillion different outlets streaming through your mind and the inspiration to create.
After that we sort of walked around the city looking at all the shops and sites and talking and he took me to this really cool, whole in the wall-type archeological gallery that was just amazing. From there we went back to his place and then I had to hurry back home to lead my Bible study.
Carly, one of my girls in my jr. high study, made cup cakes and a cake from scratch and brought it for us. It was good. We had a great study and I took the girls to Blenzers and they all got to know Amber, another staff person from church who is going to take over the Bible study for me when I go back to school. I really like her and I know she’ll do a great job leading the girls while I’m gone.
After the Bible study I went back over to Juan’s place to watch a really neat thought provoking movie “Waking Life” and to have some really yummy pizza from “Zac’s Pizza Place”. I met his family and they are really fun people. I love his mom, she’s really sweet.
The other times I hung out with Juan I met Heather. A super sweet girl that struck me as the kind of girl I would have run into on any other given day and totally have just clicked with. She was quiet, but I know that she was simply holding back just so she could examine the scene before the jumped in, which is exactly something I would do! haha. I could tell by the look in her eye and the few comments she did make that we are a lot alike and that I’m going to have a lot of fun hanging out with her when I get back to school. I can’t wait!
Another person Juan introduced me to last night was Russell. Now, this was a very strange happening. It turns out that Russell lives in CV and he went to school with me, but I never knew it. He was actually friends with my brother and had a German class with him! They were even tennis buddies! That sorta tripped me out, but the more I thought about it, the more it made sense. There was something strangely intriguing about this new guy that I couldn’t quite figure out. I’m not talking like, I was interested in him as a guy-type attraction or anything. I mean like just the way he thought about things. Well, here’s a quick run down on what happened that evening. I had started to watch Bounce because I thought I was going to be chillin’ with myself for the night. Plans that I had with my friend Jonelle had fallen through and I was really bummed because I hadn’t seen her for a long time. Then I was checking my email and that turned out to be a blessing because I got a really sweet thank-you email from Heather (Juan’s friend). Then I got a call from my buddy Lance to hang out, so I was all jazzed about that and I threw on my shoes and got in the car to head to Lance’s house. On my way there I was just sort of tuning out and thinking about the past week and how much fun I had had with Juan and everybody. I was thinking about how he had told me he was heading up to a camp to visit a friend that was counseling there and I was supposed to go with him and his friend he had told me about, Russell. But we had come to the conclusion that I wasn’t going to go because it would have been awkward because this guy wasn’t very comfortable around girls. Just then I got a call on my cell phone and it was Juan and Russell wanting to know if I could hang out before they had to leave tomorrow. So I was like alright, I’ll stop by Lance’s for a bit then I’ll meet you at Blockbuster. So I got to Lance’s, gave him the t-shirt I got him from the Weezer concert and chatted a bit and left. I got to the video store and as soon as I walked in the door I immediatly made eye contact with this guy. And I was like “whoa, that was weird”. So I did what I normally do when that happens I ignored it and pretended I was looking past him for something. Then it happened again and then again. I was kind of freaking out and frantically looking for Juan and pretending to look at the new release section. Then next time the eye contact was made again, I casually smiled, because I thought to myself, “well, maybe I know him from somewhere, he does look kind of familiar.” Then I turned back to my intense search for a newly released DVD. A few moments later I felt the relieving kick on the back of my shoe, which I knew was from Juan. He said hi and then led me over to meet this Russell character and another friend they had run into. Of course, as you probably guess earlier, he led me to the guy that kept looking at me so curiously. I just assumed, after learning that he had been friends with my brother, that maybe his interesting examination of me was instigated by his nagging recognition and trying to figure out who I was. I dunno. But I felt kinda bad because he seemed to bring out the journalistic side in me and I somehow felt this compulsion to ask him all these random questions and try to somehow figure him out. It was probably really annoying to him, I apologized like 50 times which probably came across as an annoyance as well. I dunno, perhaps the whole thing was just some strange illusion I had in my head because it had been a long day and I was sorta tired. Who knows?
So all that leads me to tonight, which was another wonderful perfect evening. I got this really sweet email from Quinn thanking me for inviting him to go to the Weezer concert with us. (Which honestly was my pleasure because he’s always fun to hang out with.) So I thought hey, I should return the thanks and I called him up and turns out he was having a dinner party with some friends and family and he invited me to come. So I went and we didn’t end up staying at the party very long. We went out to Starbucks and got our usual hot beverages and took a seat on a nearby bench and looked at nice cars and talked about random stuff like we always do. The times I have with Quinn are the times you look back on and reminisce about. They are the moments you think about when you’re talking to your friends about the ‘good-ol-days’. I always have fun and memorable times with Quinn; it’s a rare occasion when we just do dinner and a movie. After we left Starbucks he took me to this park to see if we could catch the tail end of the meteor shower. We parked and hopped the fence to the soccer field and walked around looking at the sky, but the moon was a bit too bright and we couldn’t see much. But we talked about stuff and it was fun nonetheless. Those are the type of things I look forward to.
Well, tomorrow is actually something I am looking forward to. I’m going to church to teach my Sunday school class and then I’m meeting up with my brother and his Heather and we’re going to my Grandma’s house to pick her up and take her to church and then we’re going to all have lunch together and hang out. I love my Grandma and I always look forward to seeing her. She’s so wise and such an encouragement. In fact I should dedicate a whole entry to her. I could go on and on about her.
Anyhow, it’s late, *suprise suprise*. I talked with my mom for a long time after I got back from Quinn’s. haha. Good times, good talks. hehe. Well, until next time kids!

I WAS A GIFTED CHILD
i had my niche.
intelligent. creative. or artistic.
what kind of child were you?
(brought you by april)

Sitting here watching a movie and spending some quality time with myself. Good times. I shouldn’t have picked a romantic comedy…bad move on my part. I have to admit, this past week has been eventful and I have so much to talk about. I just wish my head was on straight enough to describe it. I honestly am not feeling like myself, so that’s why I’m stopping here. I promise folks…I’ll tell you about my fabulous week that I spent with my friends Juan and Mac Man. Alright, I’ll explain the alias names. They’re both Mac users *cough cough*, but I can only call one of them Mac Man. (If you’re reading this, you know who you are!). Anyhow, Juan knows who he is and so do all the people who know him. Anyhow, I should stop now before I say too much. haha, later kidos!

[ series 1 – you ]
> — Name : Saran
> — Birthday: July 8, 1982
> — Birthplace : California
> — Current Location: the study (a.k.a. my pit)
> — Eye Color : blue
> — Hair Color : blond
> — Righty or Lefty : right!
> — Zodiac Sign : cancer I think
> — Innie or Outtie : innie, yippi
>
> [ series 2 – your favorite ]
> — Music : emo, rock, indie, some classical and soft too
> — Cartoon: not sure, I haven’t really had time to watch TV
> — Color: BLUE
> — Slushy Flavor :Don’t have one
> — TV Show : CSI (fo sho!), X-Files, Gilmore Girls, Roswell (before it ended)
> — Song : CURRENTLY it’s all of the following: Miss You Love – Silverchair, Bed Of Lies – Matchbox20, Things I’ll Never Say – Avril Lavigne, Runaway – Hoobastank, She Hates Me – Puddle Of Mudd…I have tons. I’ll dedicate a section of my journal to this topic later when I’m feeling up to it.
> — Book: not sure
> — Children’s Book: “If You Give A Mouse A Cookie”
> — Language : English
> — Food & Beverage : Pasta!!!! And ummm…raspberry ice tea
> — Subject in School: English/writing/art
> — Weekend Activity : hanging with friends, naturally.
> — Ice Cream Flavor : hmmm…this is a tough one…I like lots, it depends on my mood.
> — Roller Coaster : the only one that I can remember the name of is Space Mountain at Disney Land.
> — Fast Food Restaurant: In N Out
> — Animal: Tigers
> — Store: Abercrombie, Walmart and Best Buy
> — Shampoo: Whatever smells nice
> — Number: 8
> — Movie: I have LOTS of favorite movies, perhaps I’ll dedicate a whole segment of my journal to that soon.
> — Actor/Actress: Not sure…I’ll have to get back to you guys on this one, it’s a doozy.
>–Hobby: painting, art stuff, tennis, movies…
>–Breakfast Cereal: raisen bran, Quaker Oat Bran, etc.
>
> [ series 3 – what is ]
> — Your most overused phrase on aol : not sure…”hehe” maybe?
> — The first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning : “What time is it?” “Am I late?”
> — The last image/thought you go to sleep with : It’s different every night, not sure
> — The first feature you notice in the opposite : eyes/ hair
> — The Best Name for a Butler : Elbert
> — The wussiest sport : uhm…touch football? Not sure.
> — Your best feature : eyes
> — Your bedtime : I don’t sleep EVER! Hehe jk
> — Your greatest fear : losing friends or family
> — Your greatest accomplishment : not sure
> — Your most missed memory : going on long jogs with my doggies Beau and Cody (I miss then a whole lot!)
> — In your cd player now?: (It’s a six disk changer) Dashboard Confessional, Juliana Theory, Silverchair, Jimmy Eat World, a mixed cd, A Beautiful Mind Soundtrack
> — Your favorite car?: mustang or Viper
> — The one thing you would change about yourself?: more self-disciplined, like I used to be

> [ series 4 – who is ]
> — Your Best friend(s)?: Loreanne
> — Your biggest crush?: gee wiz, not sure
> — The last person that called you?: Tim
> — On your buddy list?: I dunno…that’s an awful lot of people…
>
> [ series 5 – do you ]
> — Take a shower everyday?: of course…sometimes twice
> — Have a(any) crush(es)? : not currently
> — Do you think you’ve been in love? : not completely
> — Want to go to college : already there
> — Want to get married : yep
> — Type with your fingers on the right keys?: still do yes
> — Believe in yourself? : sure I do
>– Have any tattoos/where? : not yet!
> — Have any piercings/where? : earlobes twice
> — Get motion sickness? : nope
> — Think you’re a health freak? : hahahahahahaha…sometimes.
> — Get along with your parents? : yup
> — Like thunderstorms?: yes
> — Drink?: nope
> — Do ?: pardon me?
>
> [ series 6 – the future ]
> — Age you hope to be married : I don’t know… maybe 25
> — Number and Names of Children : 2 preferably, 3 max. I’m not sure of the names.
> — Where do you see yourself at age 20? : lol..well, I’m already 20, so I guess I picture myself where I’m at now.
> — Describe your Dream Wedding : no
> — How do you want to die?: In my sleep
> — What do you want to be when you grow up?: journalist
> — What country would you most like to visit?: IRELAND!
>
> [ series 7 – opposite ]
> — Best eye color? : blue or green
> — Best hair color? : brown or just dark hair (with bleached tips, that always looks nice),
>–Short or long hair? : SHORT
> — Best height? : hmmmm, taller than me
> — Best weight? : uh…heavier than me
> — Best articles of clothing? : I dunno, as long as he’s wearing clothes and looks decent, it’s all good.
> — Best first date location? : where ever I am when it turns out to be really great
> — Best first kiss location? : under the stars
>
> { series 8 – other ]
> — When’s the last time you slept with a stuffed animal? : probably this last week
>> — How many rings until you answer the phone?: at the most 3
> — What’s on your mouse pad?: I mostly use my laptop – but my desktop mouse pad has a kitten on it.
> — How many houses have you lived in?: 2
>– How many schools have you gone to? : since elementary school – 5
> — What color is your bedroom carpet? : blue
> — Would you shave your head for $5,000 dollars? : *thinking* hmmm, might be an interesting change, plus I could sell the hair I cut off as well.
> — If you were to own a bar or restaurant what would you name it? : Blondie’s
> — Have you ever run from the cops?: nope, never been chased
> — If you were stranded on a desert island and you could only take three things with you what would you take?: my Bible, food/water and a change of clothes
> — If there was a movie made of your life, who would play you?: some attractive actress I hope.

Hello again. Unfortunatly I’m battling a cold so I’m not up to writing too much like I normally do. So until I regain my strength and wits, this fun little questionare will have to do. Enjoy!

1) Name: Sarah
2) Birthday: July 8
3) Zodiac Sign: Cancer
4) sex: female
5) What Time Is It? midnight
Last Person Who……
6) you Called – Brad
7) Slept In Your Bed- me and my kitties
8) Saw You Cry- no one ever sees me cry…so I don’t remember
9) Made You Cry- Jeff
10) Spent The Night At Your House- Loreanne
11) You Shared A Drink With- I don’t drink…but I shared my water bottle with Wally the other day.
12) You Went To The Movies With- Jon and Drew
13) You Went To The Mall with- myself
14) Yelled At You- I dunno…probably one of my parents
15) Sent You An Email- *sniffle* nobody

Have you Ever…

16) Taken A Picture Of Yourself With A Milk Mustache And Sent It to The Milk People- nope
17) Said I Love You to someone And meant it? yes…family or friends…but not someone I was in love with…since I haven’t been yet I don’t think.
18) Gotten Into A Fight With Your Dog/Cat/Bird/Fish/Etc.? ummm…if that means biting and scratching for play…then I guess yea.
19) Been To New York? I hope to sometime soon!
20) Been To Florida? I wish…
21) California? hmmm gee…I only live here, haha.
22) Hawaii? A bunch
23) Mexico? A few times
24) China? nope
25) Canada? Not yet!
26) Danced Naked? Not really….haha
27) dreamed Something Really Crazy And Then It Happens The Next Day? yup
28) Stalked Someone? uhm…no.
29) Had A Mud Bath? nope
30) Wished You Were The Opposite Sex? Only for the lack of the whole period and cramps ordeal, otherwise no.
31) Had An Imaginary Friend? Not that I can really remember…
32) What time is it? 10:06pm
33) apples Or bananas? Apples…fo sho!
34) Red Or Blue? blue!
35) Backstreet Boys Or N Sync? neither
36) WalMart or target: WalMart, unless Target is closer…
37) Spring Or fall? spring…sunshine and fun times!
38) Santa Or Rudolph? neither
39) Math Or English? English
40) What Are You Going To Do After You Finish This Survey? post it on lj and…sit here some more and day dream about cool stuff
41) What Was The Last Food You Ate? Life cereal…yummy
42) High School Or College? College
43) Are You Bored? Not really
44) How Many Of Your Buddies are on? 14
45) Last Movie You Saw? In the theatre – “Signs” for the second time WOO! Right now – “Kate and Leopold”
46) Last Noise You Heard: muffled sounds of the TV downstairs

Who…
47) Laughs The Weirdest? My mom
48) Will Grow Up And Be A Model? Quinn
49) Going To Have The Most Kids? Loreanne
50) Have You Known The Longest? Loreanne
51) Loudest? My roommate, Sarah W. or Emily
52) Is The Quietest? Anu
53) Do You Have The Most Classes with? no school during summer!
54) Will Fill This Out And Send It Back The Soonest? It’s not in my email, soooo…no one.
55) Who Is The Funniest? They all are pretty funny…heh
56) Who Is The Moodiest? My brother

About Your Friends:
57) Who Can You Tell Most Of Your Secrets to: probably any of them…they’re my friends because I trust them
58) Who Do You Usually Go To About All Of Your Problems: Loreanne, my brother, my mom or dad.

The Last Few Questions
60) Last Time You Went Out Of State: when I was at school
61) Lucky #’(s): not sure, but I like the number 8
62) Things You Like In A Girl/Guy?: honesty, love for music, sense of humor, smiles often, respects people, gets along with family, likes kids, thinks I’m funny :P, can relate to me and the things I like, smart (but not geeky smart), teases me but won’t seriously make fun of me, thinks it’s okay to be spoiled, has good but sensible taste, spontaneous but not outrageous, wise, someone I can learn from as well as teach him stuff too, laughs at himself for his mistakes rather than being uptight about it, likes to write, goof around, etc, etc etc.
63) Weirdest Thing About You? Is there anything that isn’t weird about me?
64) Do you have crush on someone? sorta
65) Do they have a crush on you? Don’t know
*What Do You Think About Ouija Boards? Evil, tools of the devil.
*What Book Are You Reading Now? Many different ones. Just finished one too.
*What’s On Your Mouse Pad? well…I mostly use my laptop…but my my desk top pad has a kitten on it sprawled out in a hammock…super cute.
*Favorite Board Game: anything that makes you think
*Favorite Magazine: TIME
*Favorite Sound: music, the sound of my best friend’s laugh (it’s beautiful), waves crashing against the shore, purring kitties…
*Worst Feeling In The World: losing someone, regret, walking away from something when you know you could have done more or could have done better.
*What Is The First Thing You Think When You Wake In The Morning? It’s not always the same thing…but a lot of times it’s “what time is it?” or “Man, it was just a dream”
*Do you like Scary or Exciting Roller Coasters? Yes
*How Many Rings Before You Answer? However many it takes me to get to the phone, usually no more than three.
*Future Daughter’s Name: Alexanderia (then I’d call her Alex), or some sort of girl’s name that shortens into a cute guy name. But I don’t really know
*Future Son’s Name: Blaine, Isaac… I don’t really know
*Chocolate Or Vanilla? vanilla
*Do You Sleep With A Stuffed animal? sometimes
*If You Could Have Any Job You Wanted, What Would It Be? A well known journalist and photographer.
*What Is Your Favorite Snapple? strawberry kiwi, peach ice tea
*Are You A Lefty, Righty, Ambidextrous? righty
*Do You Type With Your Fingers On The Right Keys? yes
*What’s Under Your Bed? stuff. Or sometimes my kitty.
*Favorite Sport To Watch? Tennis

HAVE YOU EVER

Been so drunk you blacked out: no
Taken any illegal substances: nope
Set any body part on fire: uhm…no.
Won any awards: yes
Killed anybody: dumb question…no
Kept a secret from someone: of course
Had an imaginary friend: not that I can remember..probably
Been in love: almost
Cried during a movie: once
Had a crush on a teacher: a little one…didn’t last very long though
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: Com’on! Kung fu Marathon…duh!
Prank called someone: yes
Been fired from a job: no

GENERAL QUESTIONS

Who is your most shy friend?: Anu
Best friend?: Loreanne and my bro
Girlfriend/Boyfriend?: nope

IN THE LAST 4 MONTHS HAVE YOU

Cried: a little
Cut your hair: yes
Worn a skirt: yes
Been mean: shamefully – I’m afraid so
Been sarcastic: only every day of my existence
Been overjoyed to see someone: yup
Talked to someone you have a crush on: yes
Missed someone: yes
Hugged someone: yes
Kissed someone: nope
Fought with your parents: not much
Wished upon a star: yup
Laughed until you cried: probably
Played truth or dare: nope
Watched a sunrise/sunset: yeah
Gone to the beach at night: no
Spent quality time alone: all the time; sometimes I don’t have a choice
Eaten dinner: every night (almost)
Gone out lately: a lot
Are you lonely: sometimes
Are you happy: I can’t complain
Are you talking to someone online: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

God/devil: yes
Love: yes
The closet monster: once
Love at first sight: it’s infatuation at first sight kids
Heaven/hell: yes
Superstitions: no

I Hurt: inside sometimes
I Love: my friends and family
I Hate: when people chew with their mouths open…or smack gum…especially during a movie! So rude!
I Cry: not too often…and only when no one is watching
I Fear: losing my friends and family
I Hope: for the best, but always prepare for the worst
I Feel: different
I Kill: big ugly flies
I Talk: to people…all the time
I Listen: to my friends
I Break: hearts sometimes, but not on purpose!
I Am: who I am and that’s all that I am and if I am supposed to be somebody else, why do I look like me? – Benjamin Franklin
I Work: too much
I Remember: what I was and what I could have been
I Hold: onto things I shouldn’t
I Hide: who I really am
I Pray: all the time
I Walk: to get away and clear my mind
I Drive: an ’95 Explorer Sport
I Read: all the time
I Burn: candles
I Breathe: the fresh sweet air of home
I Play: whenever I can
I Miss: the past
I Touch: the heart’s of other people, or at least I hope so…
I Learn: something new all the time
I Feel: like I’m forgetting something
I Know: my dreams can come true
I Dream: of what could be and what might be
I Have: more than I can ever hope for
I Want: to find my way
I Feel: unlike myself
I Wait: for love
I Need: my friends and family always
I Live: in California
I Die: inside when I hurt.

Wow! I went to the coolest concert Saturday night. Weezer, Sparta and one of my all time favorites Dashboard Confessional! We started off the evening with a hotdog and fish bbq at Quinn’s place. From there we went to the concert and I got a Weezer t-shirt for Lance (which I think he’ll like a lot…well, I think it’ll look good on him anyway) Then after the concert…you’ll never guess what happened..hehe…I was walking out and there, just chillin’ and watching the people walk by was Mike Marks, the drummer for Dashboard Confessional! I was like, dude, nobody even notices him sitting there! So I walked up and sat next to him and was like “hey, what’s up?” and we had a nice little conversation. Soooo awesome
but I was sooo sad because I didn’t have anything for him to sign and I didn’t have a pen! bummer! I was soooo sad after that. Plus, I didn’t get a chance to buy the Dashboard Confession t-shirt I wanted super bad! Double bummer! But I’ve slowly gotten over it.
Yesterday my parents left for Vegas and I went with Heather to a going away party for one of her friends because she didn’t want to go alone and my brother was being a poopey pants. For some reason (I’m not sure why), he was really cranky yesterday. Anyhow, the party was nice, but we didn’t stay long because Heather wasn’t feeling so good. She’d just gotten her wisedom teeth out on Monday. She even kept her teeth! She was showing everyone at the party, haha.
Last night I had my friend Jon over and his new friend Heather. Super cool girl, I like her a lot. She’s from San Diego and he’s from Berkley and we all go to wonderful SPU! Hooray! Anyway, they had never seen Braveheart all the way through before so we sat and watched that and pretty much just chilled. I was glad to have some company because my bro, the other Heather, Billy and his new gf Kelly all went to the city for a night on the town. I wasn’t invited. *huff* Well, I probably would have felt like a fifth wheel anyway. But it was really good to see Jon again. I didn’t fully realize till last night, how much I had missed him.
Tonight hopefully Jon and I are going to go see Signs. I love that movie so I have no problem paying $9 to see it again. It’s kind of weird seeing so many Mel Gibson movies in a row. Trippy. But if the plans for tonight fall through, Brad asked me to hang out tonight as well. He got home yesterday or the day before, I’m not sure. Anyway, he IMed me yesterday before Jon and Heather came over and was like “hey, I’m heading over to a friend’s house, but I just wanted to let you know I was home. Maybe we can go see something tomorrow night, I’ll give you a call.” And just like that he signed off before I could even say hi. Oh well, whatever happens I know I’ll have fun.

I’m sorry to say that the commute this morning wasn’t as exciting as it usually is. So I don’t have any new adventures to share.
Yesterday only one girl showed up to my Bible study, because all the other girls are at camp over at Hume Lake this week. It was great though because I took her shopping and we went out to eat afterward. We had lots of fun looking for accessories for the super devoted girls in the group. Since the group is called ‘W.O.C.’ (pronounced like ‘walk’) which stands for Women On Call, I bought a bunch of blank dog tags and the girls are going to be able to decorate them next week with their initials, a cross, and the letters W.O.C. and of course I bought some extra fun colored stones and beans and stuff. It’ll be fun to see what they create.
As far as what’s been going on here at work… Soliette, the secretary that got mad and walked out, still isn’t back. I’m not really sure when or if she’s coming back. I talked to her secretly yesterday when she called. I sweet talked her and told her how much we need her to come back to the office and stuff. I basically told her the truth, because we really do need her! I miss her. It’s supposed to be really really really hot today and I forgot to bring my sweater. If you think that sounds ridiculous allow me to explain. Our AC is ALWAYS on. And it’s ALWAYS and ice box in the office. So I usually wear a sweater or jacket when I work. Fortunately for me though, I keep a blanket in the back of my car. (you know, just in case, haha…you never know when a picnic or sun lounging is suddenly necessary, hehe) So here I sit, wrapped in a mexico blanket…typing my update, I imagine it’s a rather funny picture.
This weekend is going to be jam packed with good times! Tomorrow is the Weezer concert and Dashboard Confessional is opening. Today my friend Jon is coming down to visit home from Seattle. I’m super excited about that. Today is also payday, hooray!
Within the past few days we’ve had a lot of interviews going to hire new crew people. So far I’ve heard that we’re for sure hiring two guys. One of them rides a Yamaha! Soooo coooool! And I haven’t seen or really heard the other guy, but apparently he’s a boy wonder, I’m not sure. *shrugs*
Well, I know this update has just been so exciting and interesting that it’s just overwhelming for you.*sarcasm* I suppose this is where I should plug in my disclaimer. hehe. Or maybe just a sincere apology for my lack of adventures. Oh, well, then again….don’t fret. Really….stop fretting. I’ll make up for it. I’d hate for any of my dedicated readers to walk away from this deprived of their daily dose of corniness. Trust me, by the time my lunch break rolls around, I will have gathered my thoughts enough to update you on all the random day dreaming I do during my working hours of mindless secretary monotony. Come to think of it, I have been day dreaming a lot lately. *laughing to self, recalling latest train of thought about being on the Tonight Show after becoming famous for starting up a drive-through health food restauraunt and grocery with other conveniences* I’ll explain in my next entry if I remember to. Till then…use your imagination! haha.

Wow! This morning has been interesting to say the least! But in order that I may build up your anticipation, I’ll start with the happenings of last night. hehe
I went to the college group at Redwood last night and it was like a glass of ice cold water on a hot summer day. Very refreshing somehow. Doug talked about gossip and used Matt. 12:33-37 and a few verses from Proverbs to explain the age old lesson that gossip kills friendships (among other things). It was a great lesson to be refreshed in. He pointed out a few things that I hadn’t really thought at length about before. Like different forms of gossip and why people do it. A form of gossip that I hadn’t thought about before is like when someone makes a prayer request and they say something like “Please keep Jimmy in your prayers, he’s into some unhealthy stuff…but I can’t say more than that…” haha. So sly! Anyhow, now that I have you on the edge of your seat, I’ll tell you about this morning.
Around 8:30 this morning I was sitting in my bro’s office reading up on my current events in my TIME magazine and our head secretary and most important employee comes in to me and says “Good morning Sarah!” *with a hint of a spanish accent*. And this is normal, the startling part was when she said goodbye. I was like “Oh, where are you vamosing to?” *really bad imitation of spanish accent*. And she said she was going home! I jumped up and ran after her to ask why but she was already out the door. (She’s a quick one) Turns out that she got in a fight with Jackie, our employee manager. I’m not sure what it was about, but after many heated talks over cell phones and whatnot…she’s not coming back today. My mom gave her the day off to cool down. Since this event, things have been different around the office. I’ve taken to changing the way I do things a bit, but nothing directly connected with Solliette or Jackie’s heated altercation. That was just weird. Also, the watermelon I got from the roach coach this morning wasn’t as good as it normally is. And Mr.Chow and his wife were unusually friendly, Mrs. Chow actually smiled before she grabbed the money from my hand! Very very strange. Another exciting thing that is happening in the office is that there are two HUGE Budget trucks out front and we’re emptying out the warehouse into them until our new shelving comes tomorrow. I think it’s good for the warehouse to clean it out a bit…and who knows what we might find shoved to the back? (oooo, maybe we’ll find some historic relics or that one worker guy that mysteriously disappeared after that huge fire loss many years ago…hmmmm) Anyway, with all this excitement going on, I’ve decided to change the way I do things, simply to get into the spirit. I’ve started stapling my papers with my left hand in hopes of evening out the muscles in my forearms and hands. I’m also attempting to type a bit more with my left hand in order to increase flexibility in my fingers.
Well, the good in all this will hopefully reveal itself soon. At least I have a desk to sit at today instead of sitting in a folding chair in the conference room. A real treat I assure you! So until the next time I have another free moment, I hope you all have a day just as exciting as mine!

So…lemme see, we got cut off only like 5 thousand times this morning!!! arrrgh. But nevertheless, it was a fun morning. My brother and I had fun making fun of the other drivers who weren’t paying attention to the road and we had a blast singing along with that diva commercial they play every 2 seconds on the radio. You know, the one with Jewel, Alanis, Sarah Maglaclin (not sure if I spelled that right, but whatever). It was fun.
I got kicked out of my desk this morning to make way for the ‘new guy’. *laughs in his face* HA! Whatever! So now I am here sitting at my brother’s computer. hehe. I changed his wallpaper like 3 times. I started out with a nice spread of the Kawasaki Ninja…then I tried the Yamaha YZF600, I found that it crowed the screen too much and the color just wasn’t right. So currently I have the Yamaha YZF-R6 blue in a lovely tile background. I’m liking it a lot. I think I’ll change my Kawasaki backdrop on my old computer to the tile spread…as a welcoming gesture for the ‘new guy’ who will be occupying my desk. (And he better not change it EITHER!) *cough* I mean…I hope he likes it *innocent smile*.
I found a really cool Yamaha sport bike site…here’s the url if you’re interested: http://www.arenamotor.com/yamahasport.html

I liked it, there were a lot of cool pictures and descriptions.

So yea, yesterday at work I was typing out promo lists and adding them to our companies Outlook Contacts. In other words I was typing out a bunch of names and addresses of the people we like to schmooze with. And I came across some funny names that I thought you might enjoy laughing at, hehe.

Gaye Aaberg – I’m not sure really how to pronounce his last name, but let’s be honest…who would name their kid Gay?
Otto Graff – haha, sounds like autograph
Bradanini, Bret – anything ending with ‘nini’ sounds funny, hehe
Buell, Micheal – Buell, as in the Harley version of a sport motorcycle, pretty cool!
Bravo, Ralph – reminds me of Johnny Bravo
Brewster, Rhonda – she’s quit the ‘brewster’, if you’re nice, she’ll brew you a cup too! (okay, yea..I admit, that one was lame)
Chan, Moses – I’ll let you think up your own smart comment for this one.
Chapin, Jeff – hehe, this one just sounds funny, chapin chapin chapin
Cosmos, John – ooo, so new age
Chew, Simon – hmmm…
Fatheree, Debra – so if she’s the fatheree…who’s the father?
Flamenco, Hector – dancer
Flemming, Gregory – has a really bad cold, he’s flemming…haha
Fox, DeLame – you can figure it out
Freeman, Doug – Doug is a free man! hooray
Froom, Ronald – froooommm, *revving engine* froom froom frooooommm!!!
Gadsby, Candace – GREAT GADSBY! *shocked expression*
Gee, Harry – this one is another one open to interpretation
Goo, Shere – eeeewwww, shere goo…hehe
Good, Don – “you don good, son”
Gottenstrater, Kathy – “Kathy was crooked, but she’s gottenstrater”

Well, that’s as far as I’ve gotten down the list. I’ll have more fun tomorrow! Yippi, I know you’re all dying from the anticipation.
Oh wait, just kidding, here’s a few more to tide you over till tommorrow…

Gough, Janice – “Gough Janice…*dancing*..it’s your birthday!”
Grantland, Mike – ummm, nevermind… it sounded funnier earlier
Grau, Marina – Graur!!!
Grites, Phil – “please fill this up with sum o’ them thar grites”
Haaf, Eric – HAAF! HAAF! *oh no! kitty has a hairball!* HAAF! HAAF!

Okay, that’s all for now folks!

Alas, I have lost another dear friend. My frog Spiderman passed away some time last night. What’s even more sad is that he was just getting aquainted with his new buddy Scuba Steve. So now Scuba Steve is sad too.
But I got him a new tank to take his mind off of the loss and I think it’s helped a bit.
Other than that, the last few days have been super fun. I went and saw Signs with a bunch of friends and let me just say…that movie is soooo awesome! A must see movie on my list!
On Saturday, I went to the coolest party ever. Well, all parties at Loreanne’s house are super fun. I got her two frogs of her own and I wanted to take her to go see Mama Mia with me, but she has to go visit relatives. *sniffle* I brought Quinn with me to the party and he said it was super fun too…but he didn’t use the word super…because that would just sound funny coming from him, haha.
We listened to all these funny comedy acts she had on cd…my mom was howling…literatly. hehe.
And all that was after Twister…I like Twister, even if I do loose EVERY time, I’m not quite as flexible as I used to be. *sigh*
Then on Sunday after church I went with Tim to a family reunion and had a blast. I felt like I was in a Norman Rockwell painting. It was beautiful and the families were fun. I played ping pong and badmiton the whole time. hehe, I won a few rounds too.
Then I came home and fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow. Woke up at the usual ungodly hour of 5am and drove to work. That in itself, as you all know, is an adventure everyday. I got two fingers and a thumb. I have no idea what the thumb was about, but you all know what the finger means. It’s universal. So here I am…and here I shall stay.