Esprit de l'escalier

Wow…as usual I have a ton to do. But that’s not what is freakin’ me out…registration! I only have 12 credits for next quarter…I need more. What do I take? None of the fun art classes that I want to take are available. None of the english classes that look interesting are given this quarter. I could take some Sociology courses…those are usually pretty interesting. I wish there were some theology classes available to me this quarter, I always enjoy those. Or even Philosophy. But alas, this is such a dry quarter! There’s nothing. boo.

Girls…pray for me. Already the trials have begun…it’s only Monday, and the temptation is fierce. The lions are circling.

Soooo…my refrigerator broke and all our food had to be thrown out. We kinda saw it coming. It’s been acting up for a while now. Plant Services brought us a new one today. Well, it’s new to us. We had to clean it big time. Nevertheless, it works and we’re happy. I lost a practically new jar of my favorite plumb jam and more than a dozen eggs, among other things.
My computer has been going so slow lately and I’m not really sure why. So I’ve been going through and cleaning off my computer as much as possible. Now that I think about it…it’s probably that Kazaa update. Because I’ve been getting a lot of those annoying pop-up ads. So, I dunno…I’ll figure it out soon I hope.
I’m excited…tonight I’ve set aside time to listen to this show on the radio. It’s a mystery show (like Sherlock Holmes-type stuff). And just before that, the Twilight Zone is on too. This is a cool station, I’m glad I discovered it. AM 880 KIXI. The music isn’t too bad either. I like it. If you want to listen to the show, I’m sure there’s a station playing it in your area. I checked out the website (jimfrenchproductions.com) and they have listings of what stations air the show.
Well, I think it’s about that time…back to the books.

Girls –
As always, you are privileged to the more significant intricacies of my floundering attempts to do right by God. The fast I proposed to Grace yesterday after revealing the activities of my Valentine’s Day weekend, is a boy fast. Yes, that’s right. Starting on Monday next week (assuming I haven’t had a change of heart) I’m going on a boy fast. I have until the end of this week to solidify the rules and technicalities, but other than that…I think I’m pretty much set on the idea of not hanging out with any boys outside of classes. In other words…no dates.
Oddly enough, I’m excited for the break. *sigh of relief* I bet it’ll be wonderful to have my own personal Sarah time. I’ll keep you posted as to how it goes.

Yesterday I had some amazing quality time with my friend Grace. She’s the cutest, sweetest, funnest French girl I’ve ever met. Anyhow, we spent like 2 hours just talking at Starbucks. It was great. Then we went and had dinner in Gwinn. I’m really excited to be making more close friends. She’s part of my small group and she goes to the same church I do. We’ve decided to become closer accountability partners, so hopefully we’ll be meeting together not only on Sundays but also on Thursdays. I’m excited for that.
We both came to a conclusion after our meeting. I’m going to start fasting next week. But it’s not like fasting from food. And it’s not like my music fast. It’s a bit more difficult than that. I can’t reveal what it is I’m fasting from, because that would debunk the whole point of it. Anyhow, this post is sort of serving as a warning. If I’m acting weird…it’s probably not you…it’s the fast.
LORD, this is going to be hard. Help me.

Lord, why is it so hard to listen to you sometimes? I mean, wouldn’t it be a whole lot easier if the things I’m not supposed to do right now weren’t so fun? I wish only good things were fun and bad things weren’t fun…then there would never be this problem. *sigh*

Step 1: Open your MP3 player.
Step 2: Put all of your music on random.
Step 3: Write down the first ten songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing.

1.) Bad Religion – New America
2.) Avril Lavigne – Nobody’s Fool
3.) Justincase – The Key
4.) [LOVE]Tattoo – Drop Some Drums
5.) Avril Lavigne – Mobile
6.) Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon – Farwell
7.) Silverchair – The Greatest View
8.) 3 Doors Down – Away from the Sun
9.) The Verve Pipe – Wonderful Waste
10.) justincase – Don’t Cry for Us

Weird, I didn’t even remember having half these songs on my computer. Then, a radical change in style after number 10.

11.) TrustCompany – Downfall
12.) Something Corporate – cavanaugh park

Some other things I forgot besides the music I had on my computer…the journalism final I have tomorrow. LORD help me.

This weekend completely made up for my astronomy failure last week. Although I know the academic hiccup will cause ripples which are bound to catch up with me later on, I was able to forget about it for a few fleeting moments.
God always reminds me of one very important thing during Valentine season. This weekend was no exception. I was reminded that while most people consider V-day to be the official time to celebrate and share love, that is a definition God has reserved for our lives. Our life is meant to share and celebrate an amazing love. I’m constantly learning that the LORD communicates to us in numerous ways. Recently I’ve realized again that one of His most effective means is through people. Be it friends, family, or strangers…God gets His message across.

Box set:
disc #511 – Today
track #1 – ‘Leave me Here’ – Hem
track #2 – ‘Simple Things’ – Zero 7

Today has not been a good day so far. I totally bombed my astronomy test. Astronomy of all subjects!!! Lord, help me.