Esprit de l'escalier

Wow, I’m not even all the way through my second week of being unemployed and already I feel so domestic. Yesterday, I actually thought about making homemade applesauce! (I looked up the recipe and it’s not really that hard…but it sounds like something only a stay-at-home wife would do.)
My apartment is more clean than it was when I first moved in and I’ve been able to work out for almost two hours every day. The only thing I haven’t been able to do that I’ve really wanted to do is go shopping. Well, I take that back. I went to Target and Fred Meyer to compare prices on air purifiers (the vet recommended I pick one up for Izabelle because of her allergies). When I walked through both stores I wandered into the athletic apparel departments to look at some work-out clothes. I bought some stuff but ended up returning most (if not all) of my goodies yesterday.
It’s hard for me to spend money when I know I don’t have another paycheck coming to replace what I’ve used. I know I don’t really have to worry too much about it because God always provides, but I can’t seem to escape my instincts. Eventually I’m going to have to get over my ‘carry-your-own-weight’ mentality because I’m getting married. And getting married requires that I get over myself and learn to put my financial trust in Kyle. I’m also going to have to learn to spend his money…that’s going to take a long time.
So far the best thing about not working is that I’ve been able to watch the US Open. Every other time I’ve had to record it. It’s so great! Especially since they have TV’s set up in the gym.
It’s a good thing I haven’t been able to sleep in, otherwise I might have missed some of the best matches.