Intense
Life…*sigh*…what is life? A word to describe my life right now would be…hmmm…complex. I’d say that’s a fair description. What is making my life complex? Decisions, decisions and more decisions. I hate decisions. A lot of times I wish I could just not make a choice and let the issue just wilt away. But as they say…to not make a decision, is making a decision.
Today I was confronted by our bookstore managers asking if I had come to any conclusions about the management position they offered me last quarter. I don’t have to make the decision now, they said, but I do need to at least be thinking about it. Then there is the news editor position with The Falcon…that’s a huge one. And it’s in my vocation of choice. Can I do both? I hope so. But in addition to those, there is the internship with Response magazine. I’m not even sure if I have the position yet, but it’s there. Also I got a letter from Student Ministries asking me to try out for the SMC position. What I want to know is who recommended me? Do they even know me? haha. I’m not sure where that may lead. Opportunity abounds…what to do.
Social life choices are starting to pile up on me. Without going into it too deeply, let me just say these ones are harder than my career choices because there are more options. I’m leaving this category for God to decide, this is way beyond me.
Verse for the moment: Isa. 48:17
“This is what the Lord says- your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: “I am the Lord your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.”
Verses for the month: James 4:13-17
*look it up*
Don’t worry about choices. Choice is just an illusion, a name for the time delay between the moment our brain starts conceiving and calculating based on given circumstances and the time that it inevitably spits out a calculated course of action. There are no good or bad choices as there is no real choice, only positive and negative consequences based on the predetermined course of action that is already set in motion by previous uncontrollable circumstances.
With this in mind, there is no reason for your life to be complex as there is no reason to worry about choices. You should only worry about preparing yourself for the consequences.
Kenny…dear dear Kenny…you sure do know how to simplify my life by helping me see in a pesimistic light. Thank you. But I still have to disagree…just give me some time to think of how…
HipTIp
Good verse for your situation
-HipTip
Heh, I don’t think I was being pessimistic… yet I somehow manage to come off that way anyways. I simply said that you should prepare yourself for the consequences of your actions (both positive and negative consequences mind you) that are already predetermined.
And apart from all the biblical support for predestination and sovereignty of God (which implies a lack of control of humans), I bet you can’t think of a single choice you have made in your life that had an outcome that could not in some way be attributed to previous experiences, circumstances, mental development, genetic predisposition, etc, all of which you have no control over. Where others see randomness, I simply see a system with too many variables to comprehend, let alone model, but a casual-effect system none-the-less.
Then again there is a good possibility that I am just a rambling moron. But please, tell me why I’m wrong 🙂