Esprit de l'escalier

I was approached and carded (given a business card) by an “LA Talent” agent again yesterday in Barns and Noble. It’s the first time I’ve been scouted there. I always thought the agents just stuck to cruising the mall. Seriously, every few months I get approached. I’m wondering if God is trying to tell me something. Should I actually call back this time? Almost every agent that has given me a card tried either to book me on the spot or has written their home or cell phone number on the back.
It’s funny, this time the guy was trying to be clever and witty. I was looking for a particular book in the humor section when the guy came up and said to me “You want to tell jokes?” (or something like that). Then he rattles off something about being funny, pulls out a business card and writes his number on the back. I was about to turn and walk away while he was writing, but he stopped and handed me the card. I don’t remember what he actually said…probably the usual spiel about what he and his agency are about. Then he wrapped it all up with, “And that’s no joke!” (oh, that’s a good one! *dripping with sarcasm*)
He was still laughing about his clever line when I smiled nicely and walked away. It’s sort of funny now that I look back on it. I guess you had to be there.
Anyhow, I wonder if these places would pay enough to get me through the last few quarters of college. I know my parents could use the help. I dunno…I’m almost scared to consider it. That whole world has probably changed completely since I’ve last experienced it. Plus, I was in a different age bracket at that time. The adult side is obviously way more brutal. Could I survive? Would I be strong enough to hold a ministry to the people I’d work with? I probably wouldn’t make it very far anyway because of the standards I have (a.k.a. modesty). Or perhaps I’d be considered a unique commodity because of my rare morals? Nawh, I’m sure I wouldn’t be the only one.
There are so many beautiful girls out there. Plus, when you think about it…I’d probably just be another one of the ‘standard blond hair, blue eyed’ girls that people like to hate because they’re so prevalent (fake or otherwise). As much as I’d like to believe that I’d be different and could have an impact and change things…I can’t. I’m slowly coming off my idealist cloud and realizing that I could never be strong enough to influence the people in that world. It’s a sad reality to face. Well, actually, it’s more of a humbling reality than anything else.
I should know better by now that it’s a waste of time to even consider these possibilities. Shame on me.

Back in the real world. My friends Dan and Lana got engaged on Friday. It’s a very exciting time. They are a great couple. This makes five newly engaged couples since I’ve come home. There’s a lot to look forward to. Praise the LORD.