Esprit de l'escalier

Some serious action has been going on in Sarah’s ‘special personal life’. Jared called me tonight! Well, first of all…let me start with this. Last night when I got back I called my parents to let them know I got back safely…my dad told me that Jared had called just moments before to arrange a time to meet with my parents! My dad told me that he’s meeting with Jared this Wed! I was like ‘what in the world!?’. So when Jared called me today, you can imagine how anxious I was feeling. I’m so confused! We had talked about the status of our friendship before I left and I did give him a little kiss goodbye. (Turns out that that little kiss was his FIRST kiss ever!) But we had established that our relationship was to remain a ‘friendship’ because of distance and because he didn’t feel that it was fair to get involved when he knew he was going to be going away even after he graduates. (He’s in ROTC and is set to be a commanding officer for at least 4 years after graduation.) Anyway, he called me today to say hi and to tell me that despite his reputation of ‘pushing people away’, he doesn’t want to push me away anymore. He was having a difficult time, I think, trying to say what he meant. But I think he was telling me that he has hope for a future and he would like to eventually ‘define’ our friendship more. Yikes! I’m excited and yet I’m scared at the same time! I think I need a Loreanne hug right now!!!
Gee wiz, I was hoping this would be a ‘career focused’ quarter, haha. Lord help me!