Esprit de l'escalier

Well our brother floor (6th Ashton) raided us tonight and we played some games and talked with different people as we walked to Queen Anne and back. It was fun. We played some games in the Safeway at the top of the block and caused a bit of mischief. I met some really cool guys. I feel bad because one guy told me his entire history, but I didn’t catch his name. I called him Forest Gump the whole time because the liked to run and he got a scholarship to this school through track. He was really cute and nice, but he was also a freshman, so he’s not in the school directory…and I can’t look up his name.
I went ealier today to Rainier Avenue to help tutor some kids at an outreach ministry. It was nice to get out and do something that I wanted to do. I didn’t know anybody else until I got there and was introduced. I don’t know why, but I just felt like I wanted to go and do something on my own and not just because friends were doing it or because it was required. After I got back from tutoring I ran into Fraser when I was getting grub in Gwinn and he invited me to come and watch Dumb and Dumber. Funny movie, I’ve seen it like a gazillion times. But it was fun, He turned 20 two days ago and he told me what the guys on his floor did to him for his birthday. They took him out to a really nice dinner and then when they got back they told him it was the trditional boxer run for their floor and so a few of them stripped down to their boxers and the rest went and hid. Fraser ran out in his boxers with the few that did it too to fool him. Once they got him out in the parking lot he saw that the rest of the guys were fully clothed. They tackled him and stripped off his boxers, duck taped his hands behind his back and stuffed him into a sleeping bag and threw him into the back of a truck. They drove him up to Ashton and threw him on the second floor on the girls side, face down and then left him there. It was 15 minutes before floor hours and he was stranded. So after trying to explain to the girls why he was duck taped naked in a sleeping bag and lying on their floor, they let him out of the building and he hopped down the steep hill back to his dorm were he ran into a girl he knew and she used her key to get him inside and he was able to get into her bathroom and try to change into shorts. His friend had come by earlier to attempt to rescue him but all he was able to do was throw him a pair of shorts. So she used a knife to cut him out of the tape and he got his shorts on and went back to his room. He was super ticked off so he threw the sleeping bag out of his window and it’s still hanging in the tree outside in the parking lot below his window. haha. Interesting, huh?
So yea, I’m still wired and I want to go do something. I feel a bit lonely because it seemed sort of like our brother floor gave us a brush off. Like “well, the raid is over, it was nice meeting you…later.” I’m sure they were just being nice and whatever, but I was still a bit bummed about that. They probably didn’t mean for it to sound the way it came out.
I think I’m a little bit in the dumps tonight because, well…I’ve been reminded of a special person and that person is no longer in my life and I miss having that person around. I hate this feeling! Aaarrghh! Lord, please calm my heart!
I dunno, maybe it’s the weather…blah…I hope so.