Esprit de l'escalier

I’m really glad that you explained what you were feeling to me. And I’m glad you turned to prayer and the Word for answers. It is reassuring to me to know that your heart and focus are both in the same place. I had a pretty deep study too last night. However, once again, the results weren’t anything that I hadn’t heard before. I think I have hit a stalemate. And I think once again God is telling me not to worry and to just proceed with caution. (Sounds like a drivers test, huh?) I found two verses from Psalm that may help you to understand, because I want more than anything for you to understand me.
“He has put His angels in charge of you to watch over you wherever you go.” Ps. 91:11
“I was young, and now I am old, but I have never seen good people left helpless or their children begging for food.” Ps. 37:25
Although I am going through a trial, and everyone else is worried and confused, I am not because I know I have no need to worry or doubt. I know that I have the protection and council of God. I know that even though I may be too far off to hear his voice right now, I am climbing back up the hill to Him. And I will hear His voice perfectly clear as I near Him. All I can really respond to anything it seems is with “I know”. But as you know, ‘knowing’ and ‘doing’ are two different things.
I thank you for listening and trying to understand me. I know that you are trying your darndest to be there for me and to help me. I realize that you think you know where I am at right now. But as I was reading through Mark 4, I discovered this. We imagine we understand where the other person is, until God gives us a dose of the plague of our own hearts. And this of course is not to say that you have a plague in your heart, this was just from my quiet time journal a while back. Anyhow, let me attempt to elaborate.
You see, although we may know what the other person is going through…it is impossible to understand it from their perspective, because people may go through the same trials or whatever, but it affects each person differently based on the other experiences they have had in their life. Each person responds uniquely to situations and each person learns differently. So although you may have gone through the same experience, your council can only edify the situation so much before anything else you try to do only causes more damage. Of course, all of this is null and void if you possess the spiritual gift to serve these cases. Anyway, I will continue my babble another time. Because I know you probably already know all of this and I’m just a retard for trying to explain to you stuff you already know. chio.